TOXIC family members, friends, and adults..

** Disclaimer ** If this hurts your feelings, don’t tell my mom. She probably doesn’t care & quite honestly neither do I.

I stopped writing for awhile as I battled school, work, my relationships and graduation. But, I needed a release in one way or another so here we are —

I GRADUATED COLLEGE!

To the friend who told me I’d never make it in college being 3 1/2 hours away from home — YOU WERE WRONG.

To the relative that told me this just “wasn’t for me” - YOU WERE ALSO WRONG.

I GRADUATED COLLEGE!

TOXIC MOMS MAKE TOXIC CHILDREN

If you’re a mother pushing your judgmental, toxic, petty agenda on your child it is likely that your child… will grow into the same, judgmental toxic person you are. You are shaping, teaching and mentoring this child. Your child is watching your actions. BE KIND. GROW UP. You are NOT in high school any longer. Quit pushing your toxic agenda in which you tried to achieve in high school onto your child. All you are doing is creating a mean girl.

A slap in the face —

I recently graduated college.. and I didn’t just graduate college, I graduated A YEAR AND A HALF EARLY. I did that. But the crazy part is, it was people whom I thought were in my corner that were so disheartening about it. My bestfriend all throughout high school’s parents whom I was really close with had not said one word to me, but swooned over the college cheerleader whom is going to cheer at a bowl game in which she had nothing to do with getting there other than standing on the sidelines with her pom poms. That HURT. It hurts watching others get praised by someone you held to such high standards and adored for them to do nothing but constantly put you down and make you seem like nothing.

All because yours plans did not fit their agenda.

Just because your blood related doesn’t make you family—

I think the best thing my mother ever allowed me to do, was not put up with the bullshit that comes with family, and she NEVER forced me to like my family just because they’re my family. Because let me tell you, my family SUCKS. If you’ve read some of my other writings, you learned about the aunt whom classified me as a whore in middle school because of a bikini photo of me and a friend. Weird right? Well what about the other family members whom speak poorly behind your back? Or the ones who don’t love you because you were married into the family, kinda screwed up if you ask me… Well, welcome to my life. Some of the people in my family are the most egotistical, self-centered a-holes that probably could care less about me until I do something that they feel the need to talk crap about. Talk about a bunch of weirdos…

Walk All Over Me—

I quit my part-time job. I quit the part time job I worked at for 2 years because I acquired a new job, I was still taking classes in undergrad and I was drowning in homework. I was falling behind when it came to taking care of myself. But, instead of being appreciated for all the hard work, time, effort and sacrifices I had made for a part-time job that I gave more than I needed to…. I just got dismissed. I spent countless hours making little to nothing, working twice if not three times as much as anyone else. I did much more than was asked of me. But, I didn’t really ask for much in return. Honestly, a thank you would’ve sufficed. I didn’t even get that. Now, I just sit here and think is it even worth putting in effort in a place where you are unappreciated? In a place where you did much more than could’ve ever been asked of you but it still was never enough?

I’ll leave it at this — if you asked any of my “friends” they’ll probably tell you i’m pretty closed off for the most part. I decided to stop investing in people who don’t have my best interest at heart. The phone works two ways and i’m not gonna be the only one to reach out despite having unlimited texting or minutes, because if you can’t take the time to message me and check in on me why the hell should i always be the one to take the time to message and check in on you.

The phone works both ways folks… Use it.